really is scary how time flies. what is really scary is how quickly time is also running out. in this day & age, the economy sucks, and all the dreams and fluff this generation grew up wishing upon is merely met by most. some definitely have the luck of finding & keeping good jobs. i, on the other hand, am scrambling to save up to pay back 1 year of law school's loans. on top of a poor economy, the graduate loans are only ripping people away from achieving the materialistic American life. or the case of the Great Gasby- so much for life.
anyway, i decided to try a 3rd attempt at starting (and keeping) a blog. this time: saving up. upon starting my "new" job, i was earning very little and kept to staying at home to prevent spending money. then things popped up here & there. started picking up a lot more shifts. great sales going on for things i need [or needed to replace]. but then, i started eating out more during days where i doubled. the result? not a pretty monthly statement. well, it doesn't help that living at home in an Asian household means no privacy & then despite it being my statements, my mom will take a peek. it does help me stay in check to prevent her wandering eyes from seeing & questioning what she doesn't like & doesn't understand. well, the latter means a LOT of questioning. at least she's backed off & every once in a while takes a more concerned approach than a mislead emotional reaction. i need my own life even though that does mean i spend here & there. in actuality, i think i have been fairly good. i got myself a SoCal pass in which that is my monthly entertainment if i have someone to go with or have free time available for a little diversion. no need to spend money elsewhere when this is already paid for, minus the gas. i also have a wonderful bike, a "new" swimsuit, and new pressureless tennis balls. i do need someone to hit with for tennis, but i can easily bike around town (hoping people are willing to share the road) and swim whenever i can work my schedule around it. as for this month, it's quite scary that i am getting to less than a month away from achieving an ideal figure for my friends' wedding. "figure" being losing the excess fat & flabby arms. only thing is that i still have baby fat. :| after one day of going to the gym with a friend and actually being able to do these crunches where i have to sit on a contraption and then lean all the way back to touch the ground, my abs started having a different feel & look. that was also after not being able to stand straight for days. and this all started with me getting back into swimming & having some great dolphin kicks coming out of my flip-turns. it truly did brighten my spirit knowing that swimming was paying off, however little notice it was.
and so, the quest begins with something like Julie Powell in her journey cooking through Julia Child's 500-some recipes in one year. i think what i will do is collect the receipts from each day where i have spent and add them up here. that way i can easily see my daily spending and really cap myself. so far i have been quite successful in holding myself back from purchasing unnecessary items/foods. in regards to food, i mean my favorite ice-blended drinks. this has been successful mostly due to my laziness, indecisiveness, & eventually being behind schedule/late to where i have no time to even consider the matter anymore.
if i really want to obtain a brighter future for myself and somehow find a way to lighten my mom's life, this is the best motivation & focus i can push myself towards. good luck to myself in this contention against money woes- accountability will get me through, and dedication to myself will be the fuel. let the challenge begin!
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